Good Morning to Wedidng Thoughts

Both of my private violin students could not make it to their lessons today. Since I had the time, I decided to actually put an official time line together. The previously posted time line was just a draft. I have now put together an official one. Of course as time goes on, more of Nathan's items will be added as we don't quite know when things will be happening for him with the remainder of his schooling.

It was sort of nice to sit down and have direction again. With so many life changes happening for me, I've been a bit off balance. I always hate that feeling. I feel a bit calmer now that I have a teaching resume put together and I have some doors opening to me in my career.

Tomorrow, my mom, Brenda-Mom, Cassandra and I will be going to a bridal show at one of the reception sites Nathan and I visited. We have pretty much decided against this location, but since it is close to my house and the event was free, I signed us up to go anyway. It will be good just to see what the place looks like all set up AND to get some wedding ideas. I am also excited about watching a wedding gown model show. That should be interesting. We will also be taking time to try ice cream flavors! That should be a whole lot of fun. Don't worry, pictures will soon follow later this week.

This whole wedding thing is quite overwhelming to me and I just couldn't figure out exactly WHY I was getting anxiety when I explored wedding things at craft stores. I think I know why now. My heart so wants to get married, preferably as soon as possible, but then the brain and my knack for wisdom says that we're not financially stable yet. I have just graduated and Nathan is still in school. These weigh heavily on me, but they are vital to making a life together.

I have also discovered another reason. I don't like all of the attention! Feel free to laugh at me! You would think that because I am a studied musician and a teacher no less, that I would be over the whole stage fright thing. I think it also has to do with not accustomed to being doted on. My family never had a lot of money to spend on each other, so I grew up being satisfied with what I had. Now, all of a sudden say the word "wedding" and a lot of family hones in to offer things. I really don't know how to handle that, but I'm trying to learn.

I can just picture it now...coming down the isle I truly will be a "blushing bride." ... I hope Nathan will be at the end holding an icepack for me to put on my head; just in case! Just kidding! If he really does that, I might whack him on the head with my wedding bouquet...now there's an amusing image!